I have screwed up and have hurt people important to me. I know that you would think that perhaps my wife has caught me cheating, but that is not the case. I have been caught by Vice (my lover) writing this blog and telling intimate details about our intimate encounter. But that is not the part that really bothered her ... what she really didn't like is that the entire time before and after our encounter I was still trying to meet other women. She is also mad that I am lusting after Amy, even though nothing will ever happen with her. Vice told me that she never wants to see me or speak to me ever again... I have a terrible feeling in my heart and stomach, and I really don't know what to do. I could erase this blog, but that wouldn't fix anything, and it feels like it would be like throwing away all of the effort that I have put into creating it. .. therefore I will leave it up (for now) and see what happens.
So, how did I get caught? .. In the chat groups on RomanceSecreto, some people were talking about this blog and trying to figure out who Vice was, and then Vice entered into the chat room and then decided to read this blog ... She immediately figured out that the blog was about her ... Even though I never "cheated" on Vice, she has seen that I have not really been mentally faithful ... and in her mind I was cheating on her..
I am going to stop writing this blog for a while, while I think about my next steps.
It has been an exciting journey, and perhaps once the fallout from this latest episode passes over I will start to write again. I don't plan on stopping my use of RomanceSecreto, but I do plan on not writing any more for the time being.
Cheers
Saturday, July 28, 2012
Thursday, July 26, 2012
Tranquility
Wow, how relaxing! Compared to how busy I was last week ;-)
Well, basically everything is really relaxed this week. I mentioned in my last entry that Quick had agreed to meet me, but since then she hasn't said anything .. she has totally disappeared .. but I know her well enough to know that eventually she will say something .. if she isn't speaking it is because she is super busy ..
And Vice? What about her? Yesterday we finally chatted on MSN ... we did a "review of the game" .. the best goals .. the best plays, and things like that ... hahah .. what fun .. and, yes! We are talking about having a repeat experience, and we are trying to figure out how to arrange it .. it won't be easy. Anyway, step by step, it is still early.
On the other hand, I continue socializing and meeting people in the RomanceSecreto chat ... what a shame that I live so far from the center of the city ... even though not everyone is there, there is one person in particular that I would like to meet .. but, there will be time for that.
It has been a while since I have mentioned Amy ... maybe because there is nothing new in her situation, and there is nothing new between her and I .. and I doubt that there ever will be .. we are friends but that doesn't mean that I have stopped wanting her. Anyway, I continue to think what I have always thought, which is that she is better as a friend.
Until next time!
Well, basically everything is really relaxed this week. I mentioned in my last entry that Quick had agreed to meet me, but since then she hasn't said anything .. she has totally disappeared .. but I know her well enough to know that eventually she will say something .. if she isn't speaking it is because she is super busy ..
And Vice? What about her? Yesterday we finally chatted on MSN ... we did a "review of the game" .. the best goals .. the best plays, and things like that ... hahah .. what fun .. and, yes! We are talking about having a repeat experience, and we are trying to figure out how to arrange it .. it won't be easy. Anyway, step by step, it is still early.
On the other hand, I continue socializing and meeting people in the RomanceSecreto chat ... what a shame that I live so far from the center of the city ... even though not everyone is there, there is one person in particular that I would like to meet .. but, there will be time for that.
It has been a while since I have mentioned Amy ... maybe because there is nothing new in her situation, and there is nothing new between her and I .. and I doubt that there ever will be .. we are friends but that doesn't mean that I have stopped wanting her. Anyway, I continue to think what I have always thought, which is that she is better as a friend.
Until next time!
Tuesday, July 24, 2012
Socializing
After all the excitement of last week - preparing for and finally experiencing my intimate encounter with Vice, this week looks like it will be much more relaxed.
Vice looks like she is busy this week, but hopefully we can meet up next week... and the million dollar question ... will I have another intimate date with her?... I really have no idea .. I was thinking that I wouldn't, but now I am not so sure. I'll let some more time pass, and we'll see each other and see what happens.
This week, I am definitely going try to meet up with Quick ... the name that I have chosen to call her is definitely appropriate ... she still responds within 5 minutes of each message that I send her. I asked her if she wants to meet up this week, and she agreed. Anyway, it will just be to talk ... especially since she is so against infidelity. She warned me not to do it when I told her about my planned encounter with Vice last week .. and I didn't pay attention. We will just be friends I guess.
And "Foreigner" ... haha .. after not saying anything to me she wrote to me in another account that I have on RomanceSecreto .. and so I decided to have some fun, and I told her the truth -- that she had already sent me a message to a different profile of mine, and that I sent her the key to my private photos, and that she didn't respond to me... and told her that I hope that she finds what she is looking for. After about half an hour, she responded to me and simply said .. "you're bad". LOL.
And finally, I have continued socializing in the chat rooms of RomanceSecreto, where I met a new woman whom I will refer to as "Fantasy" ... she seems to be very educated and writes very well. She has read this blog and she liked it ... she also has her own blog which I read. She isn't from close to where I live, but she mentioned that she might pass by some time in the next few months.
And one more thing ... it is worth mentioning that in this blog I write things exactly how I feel and think in the moment that I write them. In one entry I might mention what is in my mind at that moment, and in the next I might write the exact opposite, depending on my circumstances at that moment including responses from other members of RomanceSecreto, of if I have slept well, how mad I am at my boss, or if my wife is in a good or bad mood .. and many other things..
See you soon!
Vice looks like she is busy this week, but hopefully we can meet up next week... and the million dollar question ... will I have another intimate date with her?... I really have no idea .. I was thinking that I wouldn't, but now I am not so sure. I'll let some more time pass, and we'll see each other and see what happens.
This week, I am definitely going try to meet up with Quick ... the name that I have chosen to call her is definitely appropriate ... she still responds within 5 minutes of each message that I send her. I asked her if she wants to meet up this week, and she agreed. Anyway, it will just be to talk ... especially since she is so against infidelity. She warned me not to do it when I told her about my planned encounter with Vice last week .. and I didn't pay attention. We will just be friends I guess.
And "Foreigner" ... haha .. after not saying anything to me she wrote to me in another account that I have on RomanceSecreto .. and so I decided to have some fun, and I told her the truth -- that she had already sent me a message to a different profile of mine, and that I sent her the key to my private photos, and that she didn't respond to me... and told her that I hope that she finds what she is looking for. After about half an hour, she responded to me and simply said .. "you're bad". LOL.
And finally, I have continued socializing in the chat rooms of RomanceSecreto, where I met a new woman whom I will refer to as "Fantasy" ... she seems to be very educated and writes very well. She has read this blog and she liked it ... she also has her own blog which I read. She isn't from close to where I live, but she mentioned that she might pass by some time in the next few months.
And one more thing ... it is worth mentioning that in this blog I write things exactly how I feel and think in the moment that I write them. In one entry I might mention what is in my mind at that moment, and in the next I might write the exact opposite, depending on my circumstances at that moment including responses from other members of RomanceSecreto, of if I have slept well, how mad I am at my boss, or if my wife is in a good or bad mood .. and many other things..
See you soon!
Monday, July 23, 2012
Life goes on
Now that things have cooled down, it is time to reflect on what has happened. It was about two months from I started to talk to Vice to the the time that we had our "encounter" .. they say that good things come to those who wait. But ... now what? I guess that I'll give myself time to see what happens next. I suspect that Vice and I won't see each other again for an encounter like the one we had a few days ago ... and if that is how it is, I still don't want to lose her as a friend ... I feel very comfortable with her. In fact, we have already made plans to see each other next week just to see each other, drink a coffee, and talk.
In RomanceSecreto I am meeting new people .. last night I was connected to the group chat, something that I haven't done very often up until now .. I was fun, I got some new ideas for future fantasies, and I will be in contact with some of the people that I chatted with... when I get some free time .. sigh.. this is taking so much of my free time ... and being a married man and all .. it is getting complicated to find enough time to keep up with everything. It doesn't surprise me that a lot of the women don't respond to all the messages that they receive .. I have talked with many of them who have told me that they receive 20 messages per day .. which is totally impossible to handle.
Amy and Quick are still around, even though Quick feels pretty strongly against infidelity... and the other two new contacts, "Warrier" and "Foreigner" have totally disappeared. I might try again with Warrier just to see if I can get anywhere, but my lack of free time might make it a challenge.
Cheers!
In RomanceSecreto I am meeting new people .. last night I was connected to the group chat, something that I haven't done very often up until now .. I was fun, I got some new ideas for future fantasies, and I will be in contact with some of the people that I chatted with... when I get some free time .. sigh.. this is taking so much of my free time ... and being a married man and all .. it is getting complicated to find enough time to keep up with everything. It doesn't surprise me that a lot of the women don't respond to all the messages that they receive .. I have talked with many of them who have told me that they receive 20 messages per day .. which is totally impossible to handle.
Amy and Quick are still around, even though Quick feels pretty strongly against infidelity... and the other two new contacts, "Warrier" and "Foreigner" have totally disappeared. I might try again with Warrier just to see if I can get anywhere, but my lack of free time might make it a challenge.
Cheers!
Saturday, July 21, 2012
Experience of a lifetime
Let's see how I can write this blog entry without it getting erased for being too erotic..
Yesterday was the agreed upon day, in the morning to be exact. We took everything as if we had all the time in the world ... both for her and for I this was the first time being unfaithful .. and so we first went for breakfast and we talked ... and so it didn't seem so cold and impersonal what we were about to do.
As soon as we arrived at the hotel, they immediately took us to the room. I notice that Vice is feeling nervous, and she was holding my hand tightly on the way to the room and I could sense her pulse rising...luckily I was able to stay totally calm.
Once inside .. our time had come .. the moment that I had been anticipating for so long... our level of desire was in the clouds, and without a doubt, this was the best experience of my life. We didn't leave out anything that I had prepared for our encounter ... massage oil, strawberries with whipped cream in the bathtub, the blindfold, and the feather .. but without a doubt, the best of all was the liquid chocolate and the whipped cream .. I won't say exactly how we used it, but I am sure you can use your imagination... If I get into too many details they might shut this blog down!
Speaking of sex, I tried things that I had always wanted to try, but that I had never had the chance... and above all was Vice .. the way that she felt everything and the enjoyment and passion that she expressed ...amazing! She was the exact opposite from my wife ... night and day.
We spent six hours together in the room .. clearly we weren't "working" the entire time, we had time between acts to talk, to relax in the bath, to check out RomanceSecreto, to laugh, etc.
Yesterday was the agreed upon day, in the morning to be exact. We took everything as if we had all the time in the world ... both for her and for I this was the first time being unfaithful .. and so we first went for breakfast and we talked ... and so it didn't seem so cold and impersonal what we were about to do.
As soon as we arrived at the hotel, they immediately took us to the room. I notice that Vice is feeling nervous, and she was holding my hand tightly on the way to the room and I could sense her pulse rising...luckily I was able to stay totally calm.
Once inside .. our time had come .. the moment that I had been anticipating for so long... our level of desire was in the clouds, and without a doubt, this was the best experience of my life. We didn't leave out anything that I had prepared for our encounter ... massage oil, strawberries with whipped cream in the bathtub, the blindfold, and the feather .. but without a doubt, the best of all was the liquid chocolate and the whipped cream .. I won't say exactly how we used it, but I am sure you can use your imagination... If I get into too many details they might shut this blog down!
Speaking of sex, I tried things that I had always wanted to try, but that I had never had the chance... and above all was Vice .. the way that she felt everything and the enjoyment and passion that she expressed ...amazing! She was the exact opposite from my wife ... night and day.
We spent six hours together in the room .. clearly we weren't "working" the entire time, we had time between acts to talk, to relax in the bath, to check out RomanceSecreto, to laugh, etc.
Friday, July 20, 2012
Getting ready
Before anything else, no, I have not yet had my date with vice, it is happening in the next few hours... in the meantime, I am preparing the list of everything that I am going to bring with me that I hope to use: strawberries, whipped cream and liquid chocolate, a blindfold, a feather to tickle her, and massage oil to give her a nice massage. Basically this is a fantasy for the both of us, and I am going to treat it as such.
Speaking of the other contacts, there are two new ones ..
I'll call the first one "Warrier" for various reasons, hehehe ... but basically because she is a woman that seems to be quite direct .. We haven't talked a lot yet, so we'll have to see how things go.
On the other hand, there is a foreign (non Spanish) woman whom I'll call "Foreigner" because it is going to be difficult to speak with her. I don't have much hope for anything to come out of the contact with her .. she had asked me for the key to see my private photos and then didn't send me any more messages ... maybe I'm not her type. Just in case, I sent her the link to this blog, and hopefully she will read it, and I hope she understands it since her English (and Spanish) is not very good. If you are reading this "Foreigner", hi!
Quick has disappeared .. basically, she found a separated man that she could share her experiences and feelings with. I decided to try to have her take the place of Amy, and to be my new confidant .. so I explained to her that I was about to take the final step into infidelity and she told me that I shouldn't do it .. that I should separate from my wife ... but, I am afraid that I am not going to listen to her advice .. The decision is made, and it was made a long time ago.
One of my co-workers is impressed and looks at me with admiration with what I am achieving on RomanceSecreto, and so I gave him the link.
And, one more thing. Amy is still seeing her married lover ... and she is totally in love with him. She thinks that she'll never find anyone better than him, no matter how much she looks .. hopefully one day the feeling will be mutual.
And, and about me? Do I feel bad? hmmmmm .... not at all ... I'll let you know after my encounter with Vice
Until the next time!
Speaking of the other contacts, there are two new ones ..
I'll call the first one "Warrier" for various reasons, hehehe ... but basically because she is a woman that seems to be quite direct .. We haven't talked a lot yet, so we'll have to see how things go.
On the other hand, there is a foreign (non Spanish) woman whom I'll call "Foreigner" because it is going to be difficult to speak with her. I don't have much hope for anything to come out of the contact with her .. she had asked me for the key to see my private photos and then didn't send me any more messages ... maybe I'm not her type. Just in case, I sent her the link to this blog, and hopefully she will read it, and I hope she understands it since her English (and Spanish) is not very good. If you are reading this "Foreigner", hi!
Quick has disappeared .. basically, she found a separated man that she could share her experiences and feelings with. I decided to try to have her take the place of Amy, and to be my new confidant .. so I explained to her that I was about to take the final step into infidelity and she told me that I shouldn't do it .. that I should separate from my wife ... but, I am afraid that I am not going to listen to her advice .. The decision is made, and it was made a long time ago.
One of my co-workers is impressed and looks at me with admiration with what I am achieving on RomanceSecreto, and so I gave him the link.
And, one more thing. Amy is still seeing her married lover ... and she is totally in love with him. She thinks that she'll never find anyone better than him, no matter how much she looks .. hopefully one day the feeling will be mutual.
And, and about me? Do I feel bad? hmmmmm .... not at all ... I'll let you know after my encounter with Vice
Until the next time!
Thursday, July 19, 2012
The moment is almost here
It is almost real, Vice has accepted my proposal to meet next week, and will will finally have our anxiously anticipated encounter ... hehehe ... for obvious reasons of privacy and security, I won't mention where we will meet..
Vice commented to me that she has never "intimately been" with anyone but her husband .. and the truth is that for me I haven't had a lot more experience than her, but still .. what a surprise! She also mentioned that to go directly to the hotel seemed to be too direct .. which I can see. So, we have a plan to meet for a coffee before anything..
In the end, I guess that it might be true what she told me about never having been unfaithful in her life... but with these kinds of things there is always a doubt .. however, given what I have seen, it seems to be true. So we will be together for our first time being unfaithful!
And leaving that aside for a moment, I have felt pretty embarrassed for the past few days because Amy has read this entire blog, and of course she has asked me a few "delicate questions" about things that I have written here, I mean, here I have explained everything as I feel it and as I live it ... and I plan on continuing to do the same even if she continues to read it ... it doesn't matter. I know (hope) that she won't end our friendship just because of this blog.
And "quick" has disappeared ...she doesn't send me messages and I haven't seen her on RomanceSecreto.. I hope that nothing has happened with her husband .. or with her personal problems (which she has a lot of) .. if she doesn't let me know anything in the next few days, I'll send her another message.
Vice commented to me that she has never "intimately been" with anyone but her husband .. and the truth is that for me I haven't had a lot more experience than her, but still .. what a surprise! She also mentioned that to go directly to the hotel seemed to be too direct .. which I can see. So, we have a plan to meet for a coffee before anything..
In the end, I guess that it might be true what she told me about never having been unfaithful in her life... but with these kinds of things there is always a doubt .. however, given what I have seen, it seems to be true. So we will be together for our first time being unfaithful!
And leaving that aside for a moment, I have felt pretty embarrassed for the past few days because Amy has read this entire blog, and of course she has asked me a few "delicate questions" about things that I have written here, I mean, here I have explained everything as I feel it and as I live it ... and I plan on continuing to do the same even if she continues to read it ... it doesn't matter. I know (hope) that she won't end our friendship just because of this blog.
And "quick" has disappeared ...she doesn't send me messages and I haven't seen her on RomanceSecreto.. I hope that nothing has happened with her husband .. or with her personal problems (which she has a lot of) .. if she doesn't let me know anything in the next few days, I'll send her another message.
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