Surviving

If I had to use one word to describe my situation, it would be "surviving"

Amy, my friend ... or the person that I considered to be my friend ... is behaving like anything but a friend. She is definitely trying to avoid me now ... and I though that she wasn't that kind of a person .. but she is. She avoids me. I have made a decision ... if she ignores me and leaves me hanging during our chat conversations, then I will start to ignore her and do the same. Hopefully once she notices that she doesn't have me waiting to support her and to give her advice, then she will ask me what is happening and why I am so cold to her .. . then we can talk.. In any case, if it doesn't work out it is her loss...

And Vice? She must be having so many doubts about me. Anyway, last night in a moment of weakness I wrote her an email, in a very gentle and elegant way, in which I explained many things her .. things that we had both experienced in our lives, our desires, my feelings for her, etc. She responded to me saying that it was the most beautiful message she had ever received in her entire life ... and that there was something that she wanted to tell me , but that she did not dare to say it.. anyway, at least it seems like everything is not yet lost with Vice.

And finally "Quick" is beginning to confide in me and to explain to me her situation... a very delicate situation .. she lives with her partner, but in-fact is totally physically and emotionally separated from him. Curiously, her life has a lot of similarities to mine, and she is thinking about options that she didn't dare consider a few weeks ago, such as a complete separation... but not yet. Maybe Quick will be the friend that I used to think I had in Amy.

As I mentioned in my previous blog, I have started to make new contacts in RomanceSecreto.com, but as usual, the majority haven't responded to my messages. At least this time I am mentally prepared for the time and effort that I will have to dedicate in order to achieve my objectives..

I will continue to write.