I have screwed up and have hurt people important to me. I know that you would think that perhaps my wife has caught me cheating, but that is not the case. I have been caught by Vice (my lover) writing this blog and telling intimate details about our intimate encounter. But that is not the part that really bothered her ... what she really didn't like is that the entire time before and after our encounter I was still trying to meet other women. She is also mad that I am lusting after Amy, even though nothing will ever happen with her. Vice told me that she never wants to see me or speak to me ever again... I have a terrible feeling in my heart and stomach, and I really don't know what to do. I could erase this blog, but that wouldn't fix anything, and it feels like it would be like throwing away all of the effort that I have put into creating it. .. therefore I will leave it up (for now) and see what happens.
So, how did I get caught? .. In the chat groups on RomanceSecreto, some people were talking about this blog and trying to figure out who Vice was, and then Vice entered into the chat room and then decided to read this blog ... She immediately figured out that the blog was about her ... Even though I never "cheated" on Vice, she has seen that I have not really been mentally faithful ... and in her mind I was cheating on her..
I am going to stop writing this blog for a while, while I think about my next steps.
It has been an exciting journey, and perhaps once the fallout from this latest episode passes over I will start to write again. I don't plan on stopping my use of RomanceSecreto, but I do plan on not writing any more for the time being.
Cheers
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